It's hard for me to tell you that I've been through it tooYou're tryna clean up the messSewing together what's leftYou saidI used to trust so easilyI used to fall for anythingBut under all my boundariesI just didn't know betterI used to have no confidenceUncomfortable in my own skinDeep down, way-way back thenI just didn't … Continue reading Day 1,162
Gosh I miss her 😔 Day 365
For the entirety of my life I have felt a special connection to baths. As a child they are where I would allow my imagination to run free and spend hours making entire story lines for my plastic miniature Disney characters. Making grand adventures and surprisingly introspective When I got older I would seek solace in the bathtub … Continue reading Day 1,111
"It won't be easy, you'll think it strange When I try to explain how I feel That I still need your love after all that I've done You won't believe me All you will see is a girl you once knew" Who do you look to? Throughout life I have been exposed to some the … Continue reading Day 980
“My castle crumbled overnight I brought a knife to a gunfight They took the crown, but it's alright All the liars are calling me won Nobody's heard from me for months I'm doing better than I ever was” The calm descended like a warm weighted blanket while lost in an arctic tundra. I had a … Continue reading Day 979
Tomorrow is my birthday….I will be 31 years old. Much older than I had expected or wanted a decade ago. Actually almost exactly ten years ago I started my addiction. Getting shitfaced with some of my oldest friends at the time. Hiding that I was already high out of my mind; I had an omenous … Continue reading Day 967
“Even if we try to conform to ideals and strive for perfection, we will always be pulled back to our core identity because it’s the path of least resistance for our souls – an energy force that wants nothing more than for us to honor and accept who we are and discover what we’re meant … Continue reading Day 944
Many times I am quick to say “I don’t know if I understand true love.” Not that I haven’t given and received. It’s more that I was not cognizant enough to accept. The quieter I am getting with myself the more I am hearing the repetitive loop of lies I feed myself. No wonder I … Continue reading Day 933
There is a space I vacillate within. Close to the edge. Provoking my imagination in the most obfuscous ways possible. As if I am flirting with my own disaster. Or feeding my black wolf over the white to see who will kill who eventually. I came face to face with myself just a year and … Continue reading Day 915
“Success is on the way, I feel it in the distance Used to look up at the stars and be like ain't too much that's different I be shinin', they be shinin', get your one shot don't you miss it What you know bout' wakin' up everyday like you on a mission? I hope you … Continue reading Day 912
The Optimistic Widow 