Day 519

*This song has gotten me through so many difficult times. I look exhausted because I am. Thank you for allowing me the space to share my soul so openly*

I’ve been struggling I think for awhile now.

I didn’t even notice it creeping in.

It had become such a part of me that I didn’t even know it was happening.

It took a friend at work to say “Hey. Ummm I’m worried about you.”

I laughed out loud “Why?”

“I put makeup on today. I showed up to work. I have been present.”

In the moment I hadn’t considered the fact that I had been sobbing in the bathroom just days before.

Sometimes that weight.

It’s just insurmountable.

Even on your best days.

I wonder why it took me so long to notice.

Now that I know I can’t unknow.

I’m really sad for me.

I thought I was doing good.

I really did.

“And she said that she’s seen the light.

But she’s never seen it shine.”

Andrew Wilkinson

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