*This song has gotten me through so many difficult times. I look exhausted because I am. Thank you for allowing me the space to share my soul so openly*
I’ve been struggling I think for awhile now.
I didn’t even notice it creeping in.
It had become such a part of me that I didn’t even know it was happening.
It took a friend at work to say “Hey. Ummm I’m worried about you.”
I laughed out loud “Why?”
“I put makeup on today. I showed up to work. I have been present.”
In the moment I hadn’t considered the fact that I had been sobbing in the bathroom just days before.
Sometimes that weight.
It’s just insurmountable.
Even on your best days.
I wonder why it took me so long to notice.
Now that I know I can’t unknow.
I’m really sad for me.
I thought I was doing good.
I really did.
“And she said that she’s seen the light.
But she’s never seen it shine.”
Andrew Wilkinson
optimisticwidow.com 